Clean Slate!!!!

No, I am not a believer of making any New Year resolutions or for that matter any resolution at all. But still sometimes one feels to start afresh.



I was playing with the kid in my neighbor’s house, (not yet 2 years old) , I was writing and trying to teach him something, but he used to invariably always erase it from his slate. Even when he wrote the very next moment he would erase it. He loved seeing the clean slate…and then I thought, we all sometimes need that clean slate…to start a new beginning…. leaving behind those prejudices, to start looking at things in a newer way.


Don’t you all feel that one day you just want to run away from the known land to the realms of a journey? A journey to discover a new place, find new people, find newer ideas, find the same freshness that the sun rise gives us when you see it in making the early morning dew glitter.


I am so overwhelmed with the whole idea of starting of from scratch…a clean slate, an empty page of a writing pad, the new pages of an unread book, the not ventured path.


Memories are always good to keep, but one must not get too caught up in the past that you fail to look at yourself once in a while. When you reach the dead end, we all must always be open to change our path. But if you reach the crossroads then make use of your wisdom to choose the best path for yourself… The best path that you venture into may not have been treaded before, but allow yourself to make the new discovery, who knows may be that will take you towards your destination.


Have you ever seen the river? It decides its own course, you will; find it flowing undeterred amidst all the rocks that come its way and amidst all the twists and turns and mountains and hills. Did you ever question – what is it that makes the river flow – just flow with no concern of the terrain? It’s the same quality we must learn, to be fearless, face the challenge of making a new beginning and carving our own path on our way towards our destination.


So, I plan to make the new beginning today and traverse the unknown path and venture into a journey to remember…

Story of Relationships- Part 2

Ok, BIG DISCLAIMER is “I am not married” So the views expressed sometimes may sound purely imaginative and may not even hold relevance when thought in the practical sense.Date: 12-11-2009

What is marriage or a spousal relationship? Dictionary definition says it as the state of being a married couple voluntarily joined for life.
In our society marriage is the legal stamp on the togetherness of 2 individuals who have chosen to be with each other through the life journey.
Do you notice the word Voluntary there; it means that it is an act of choice and not to be dictated by anything else.

Why would a person want to get married to another person? This is a question that has bothered me for long, I think it is very important to know the answer for this… and I am trying to discover the answer for that as I draft this.

I have heard different views on it from many people, mostly from my age batch. The reason that they may be left alone in life (at old age or even when you are young, because all your friends will be married) is cited many times, and even to convince me.


But should that “Being left alone” be the reason you look for a husband or wife?
I mean, one can be left alone thought sitting in between the crowd. Its not necessary condition that the person we marry will be able to erase all the loneliness in our lives.


Ok, the other part of the reason of having companionship at old age is valid but only to some extent. With such an uncertainty on Human nature, how can I pre suppose that the person I am marrying today is going to be the same or with whom I want to share the moments of my old age. Or for that matter even that person is always unsure given the fact of “Change” in our lives. Looks like quite a gamble with all these reasoning for me…


Some might be bold enough to state the fact of having the physical pleasures as Man and Wife. Fine, but in today’s world is it really bound to be in the realms of marriage alone. Yes , it is for an idealist, that’s always the case. But ideals are also relative. :P


To have children, again this alone cannot be the criteria to get married and neither all the above put together is giving me a convincing reason why a person should get married.
What everyone fails to say or perhaps it is but obvious is the fact that “One should get married to be loved”. This is one of the basic necessities of all relationships. And for marriage it is THE most necessity. If people told me that I have to get married because I need that love which gives me the Strength to walk the rest of the path of my life or the love that gives me the Warmth of a friendship amidst the cold brutalities of circumstances or may be just the feeling of “I am there for you”, one can actually give marriage a serious thought. But most of the time people just keep telling me the social stigmas attached to it, which makes no convincing reasons at all to get married.

Now, let us say I decide to get married because I want to be “loved and cared for”. It is so important a fact that I am loved and cared for “who I am” than for the perception that people have of an ideal lover or ideal wife.


The arranged marriages are one way of making a deal that Boy meets Girl and Girl meets Boy and now they need to understand each other and see if they are compatible and then get married. It’s such a compromising reason to get into the relationship called marriage. I mean both parties can always opt for pretending throughout days when they meet and by the time they decide. Or one of them may fake it. Or let us say in the best scenario both are honest, but still it’s like searching for the pearl ring among a bowl of pebbles, again a gamble.


Coming to the ones that we term as Love marriages, People are equally excited and frightened with this concept. Excited for the fun of having chosen and met their Life partner


And, frightened if their dreams of marrying each other will materialize or not. But it is definitely a better bet than arranged marriages. Because people will not fake themselves when they are seriously into a relationship and are thinking of future together.


Only thing, which is perhaps essential to see to it that they finally marry each other, is their Conviction for what they feel is Right – the right to love each other.
Hmmm, I guess I preached a lot, Sorry if it sounded like some preaching’s, it was just the honest thoughts in my mind on this relationship fundas.


To end this, I would just add one thing, every relationship has its own beauty and we need to cherish it for its nature and complexities attached to it.
For anything to flourish, we need to have RESPECT for that. RESPECT will also lay the foundation for LOVE and then LOVE lays it for a FUTURE LIFE which is beautiful.


PS: Lines added, after comments on my previous posts... "One needs to Marry to be loved and also To Love". I dont know though which gains precendence, whether You love someone first and the other person responds or is it just simultaneous.

Story of Relationships Part -1

Recently for some reasons I end up being a part of the discussion about friendship, relationship and marriage. Till now, I have never really thought about them so deeply to form my views on it.

Basically I did not find the need to do it, but now I can see that everyone has a say on it, so let me at least formulate some thoughts around each of these.

Disclaimer: Not everyone may agree with what is said in it, it is not meant to be taken offensively and everyone has a right to have an opinion, so feel free to argue and point out if my understanding is wrong anywhere.

We will start from the generic terms and move onto more specific terms and their definition.
What is a relationship (between people)?
Dictionary says it as a state of connectedness between people (especially an emotional connection).
Some of these we are born with, the connection are formed based on our birth.
Some of them are formed as a natural process of our growth like the people we grow up with in School, College, and workplace.
Some very unknowingly gets formed, we may not meet them in a regular basis, but a certain encounter might actually make the necessary connectedness.

So basically in different situations we form relationships in our lives.
In all these situations in my life, I have never carefully chosen to be in a relationship, the bond naturally grew and so many people became a part of my life with absolutely family connections.

I came across them, we shared some camaraderie and slowly perhaps both of us consciously decided to be there for each other and hence the relationship.
At no point of time, was anything forced and at no point of time in such relationship that we naturally get into, any compulsion that existed.
Relationship that I am speaking of, is a very generic term given to any form of emotional connectivity we have with people.
So we will now come to more specific terms, like Friendship, Spousal relationship (Marriage)
Friendship: What is Friendship? Dictionary definition: The state of being friends (or friendly)
Who is a friend? A person you know well and regard with affection and trust.
Now let us dwell into the terms which define a friend.
It says, A person “you know well”.

Well , this whole “you know well” thing is so relative with respect to time na, I mean today I may know that person quite well, but overtime the person evolves and if I The state of being friends (or friendly) don’t invest the time to see or at least understand the evolution how do I really know it?

Ok now coming to the point “regard with affection and trust” that’s again very relative, again because the person evolves, we all do and that’s the natural phenomenon and hence the “regard of affection and trust” also changes as you see the person in front of you changing…

You see its difficult thing to say that we are friends in the truest sense of the word.
In order to keep the friendship remaining as it is now presently, we need to have a common set of ideals and principles and a very similar way of thinking and also spend quality time with each other. The reason I am saying this is because lets say we end up having huge differences in our views in the beginning and something as base as our ideals clash, we can never be able to appreciate and respect the other person’s view. When you can’t respect you obviously cannot have the affection or trust, because all the emotions form at the base of “Respect” Time is indeed needed in order to understand the person’s ideals and more so also see the way the person reacts and evolves as time flows.

Next, obvious is the misconception that people have which says Friends are always "Understanding". Most of them misuse this term to the nth degree and claim that I hoped you would "Understand".... :)
Common Dialogue : "I hope you would understand and hence our friendship will remain forever".  The understanding thing has thiws beautiful feature of onesidedness. Always the person who is saying this dialogue expects that he/she is understood and never places him/her on the other side.

Overall Friendship is a beautiful relationship between two matured people who share a similar understanding of their basic ideals ...

Now, lets us see the topic of spousal relationship or marriage.
I guess I will take up this topic in my next post.

Why and how am I connected?

Sunset:


I was sitting today in the cafeteria in one of the farthest corner and from where the sunset was so clearly visible. I was enjoying the sky changing its color every moment and as time just passed by the sun disappears leaving the last traces of rays captured in some of the wandering clouds...

The sun has now set leaving me only with memories once again; I wondered what is it that connects me so deeply with a sunset that everything else around me seems so much immaterial and unimportant. I just freeze at that moment, my eyes sometimes are filled with tears and sometimes my lips adorn a smile. That’s a time when I am transfixed and completely surrendered in front of the beauty of the nature. I have been watching so many sunsets.... But there is some intriguing quality in it that binds me every time I happen to see it.


And then the world awakes as I hear a far cry from one of my friend or the person seated right next to me – “Tea break is over, shall we go?” And during those times, I always think when poetry should flow into your ears; it’s only a reminder call to go back to work is given to me…. What an anticlimax?


Rain:


Do I always enjoy it? Not exactly, but I love it most of the times, except those days when it is raining the whole day. Rain is just the moment you want to run to your terrace and drench yourself as the initial droplets fall from the sky. It’s a momentary satisfaction of feeling cleansed and pure from both inside and outside.


I have had many rain drenched walks in my life. But one of them was especially beautiful one that I can recall. I was on my way back from office, and to reach the bus stop I had to actually walk a twenty minutes path. The path was strewn with bushes around them and only cyclists or pedestrians were on that path. There was also a road running parallel to that and it was one of the highways of one of the European cities. As I left my office the sun was still adorning the sky and hence I was without any of my rain gear. It was one of the days in the last leg of the summer period there. I started walking that path and suddenly the rain started. There were no place to take shelter and I had to walk. I was actually enjoying the rain thoroughly and now I had reached the bus stop, the bus was late and then suddenly the sun comes out and in its full ferocity, my clothes are half dried by the time the bus comes.

What was so remarkable was the fact that there was no one in the whole path towards bus stop and neither at the bus stop. I was least conscious of my wet dress and least concerned what people wondered about me. Just gave into the urge to be drenched and feel the water trickling down your skin and hands …….


Rainbow:

Spotting a rainbow is sometimes the WOW moment in my life, simply because it’s so rare that I get to see them. I have seen most of them while I was in one of the European city and from my apartment window.


The sheer sight of so many colors distributed on the clear blue sky and the way it originates from one horizon and ends on the other side of it is a visual treat for a nature lover.


The color just brightens up my day and makes me feel that life is so BEAUTIFUL.
In its diversity, it holds such a plain fact of coexistence. There is a story also attached with this one, one of those days of my stay away from my family I find myself woken up quite early in the morning on a Weekend. I help myself with a cup of coffee and open the windows of my apartment to have the look at the hill view. As I open the window shutters, I could see the light appearance of the rainbow in the sky, and just as it starts making its appearance more clear, I dial up one of my colleague’s number and wake him up and tell him to see the rainbow in the sky. And he so sweetly thanks me for letting him know about it. Only after the sky phenomenon is over, do I realize that I woke him up on a weekend. But there was no point apologizing as the harm of disturbing someone’s sleep is already done.


Endless list:
There are many more things that I connect to… Like Babies, Butterflies, Flowers, Fountains, Waterfalls, Riverbed, Lakeside, Nest of Birds, Hills, Mountains, etc…. all nature’s magnificent, beautiful creations, perhaps that they cannot be described in mere words. It’s the feelings that they render to your heart and the thoughts they put in your mind and cleansing and pure feeling that they give to your soul is something far more greater than anything else around you.


I feel like baby in front of these, and just want to be embraced in its serenity.
So I won’t analyze any more why and how do I connect? I would just give myself completely to that moment and treasure its memories in the locker of my heart….

Once upon a time

Once upon a time, she was in the spring of her life, glowing and beaming with joy.
Once upon a time, she carried with her the fragrance of innocence and beauty.
Once upon a time, she filled the empty spaces of time and heart with her ringing laughter.
Once upon a time, she was an epitome of compassion with her serene eyes.
Once upon a time, she was someone’s “LOVE” and someone’s “LIFE”.


Gone are those days when she found life filled with eternal bliss.
Gone are those days when she found herself dancing to the music of the rain
Gone are those days when she felt the dreams coming true in front of her eyes.
Gone are those days, when she felt the comfort of someone’s hand on hers…


Today, what remains are the pages of memories of those times…
And the stillness of the life like the tears on her eyes…
But still amidst the pain, one thing still lives on…


The hope to spring herself back into life someday…
The hope for finding that light which has evaded her till now, someday…
The hope of being at the sunset point of life, tears of joy filled in her eyes… someday…
The hope of finding "YOU" back… somehow … somewhere… someday..

The Rain and the Journey

Some memories live an imprint on your mind and you want to capture it on paper and hence I am trying to recollect the path once travelled and put relive the experience with the words on paper… the story of my journey through the rain one fine day…



I was on my way back home from office in my company shuttle. The day had been tiring and I was longing for some relaxed evening drive back home. As the shuttle started, it started raining and I was forced to close the window. The window panes had the water droplets trickling down, and cleansing the day’s dust that had settled on the window panes. It was a day in the mid of July and the temperatures were soaring high. I wondered looking at the water droplets that we all need that rain once in a while to cleanse our body, mind and soul of all the weariness we have been carrying with us for so long. Since I had no ways to get drenched until I reached my stop, I decided to watch the rain instead and enjoy its beauty.


As I watched outside the window, I saw that this rain had written different stories in the life of different people and they unfolded beautifully in front of me. Our bus reached the university gate; I found many two wheelers taking shelter under the bridge. I thought perhaps they were all returning home and did not carry any rain gear as it was still not monsoon and the rain was unexpected. The vehicles there honked to make way for them, these people were managing to pull their vehicles into a corner and give then some path. They thoroughly disliked the rain and it was evident in their disturbed faces, it had ruined there evening and ride back home and that’s pretty understandable.


We moved on the university road now, this particular path is my favorite. It is a path filled with lush greenery all around and less vehicles on the road. Somewhere hither thither on the road you can find the departments and university quarters. It was still raining, but by now it was on the lighter side. When suddenly on one of the turns I saw a couple on their bike completely drenched and enjoying in the rain. They overtook our bus and continued on their way ahead. The rain perhaps made their day and evening more beautiful, as they drenched in the rain and love and carved a time in their lives which they will always treasure like the little pleasures in times of love.


We moved on… we were almost into the residential area, there were only bigger bungalows and car parked in front of them, I wondered how these people experience the rain as most of the time you will not find the sight of a single soul except the watchman. As I peeked out of my window I saw a very contrasting picture of life in general, I saw the watchman of this house sat with an umbrella which was torn and water dripped in drops from it. He could be easily a 50 year old man very weak in built and was quite wearisome and now was trying hard not to get drenched. It portrayed a picture that of bondage in front of me


Our bus was waiting for a signal and hence we were stuck there for some time. I looked towards the sky if the rain was going to continue this way and happened to see the terrace and there I saw a young girl in her teens in her school uniform getting drenched and enjoying the beauty of the rain…She was least concerned about the world outside, all she knew was she wanted to soak herself in that rain and that’s exactly what she did. Someone with the exuberance of the youth only can really enjoy the freshness of the first rain. I thought she will also remember this experience where as the watchman of her house would be praying that it does not rain again tomorrow and he does not get drenched and fall sick. Life presents such contrasts in front of us sometimes that leave us puzzled.


With some philosophical leanings of my thoughts now, I continued the journey and it continued to rain… wondering the whole way back how nature manages to connect to people in so many different ways….


It was now drizzling and I decided to get down one stop before my stop and walk the 10 minutes path … I wanted to enjoy the feeling of getting the first rain drops to drench my body and give a freshness to my mind.. And I walked caring a damn about the world, the people around me and vehicles passing beside me… It was a short and peaceful and loving walk of my life….and of course a memorable journey.

Tears of Memories:

She stared outside the car window and found that the sight was getting blurred slowly, she thought for a moment may be it was raining outside. She opened up the window glass to look outside, still finding blurred images moving in front of her; it was only when the droplets fell on her hands did she realize that there were tears in her eyes… It was not the rain outside but the raining emotions in her heart that was giving her the hazy images.


As she started her car, her heart was still heavy with loads of memories that she was leaving behind this place. This was her last day in office and soon she will fly abroad to accompany her husband there…


She was part of this company right after she finished her college; she had made many friends, had wonderful colleagues and also had a huge guidance from her seniors. It was both a learning ground and fun place to be in…
The days started with a good morning mail exchanges with her friends, status call of the project, assignment of task, googling to finish them and waiting for the lunchtime, At lunchtime usual playing of pranks, deciding on Birthday parties, planning next trip points and time flew by… back to work and an occasional informal chat with a colleague or an argument ending up on a treat, made the workplace so vibrant ….Evening sunsets and coffee and musings about life.. Then back home after a fulfilling day at work…. Could you ask for anything more from life?


In short she had the best of her years in this place and today was the last she was going to drive this road… As she went to parking lot, and took her seat, she could not start her car and everything that she experienced till now played in her mind and she knew that she will miss all this very much… She suddenly felt that she will never again be able to relive those moments even if she came back…. Because things are bound to change and she cannot control that… May be , that’s life, Time just flies by and changes come into our lives even before we realize it and we have to just accept it and keep moving ahead. She now managed to convince herself that this was the end of it all… and she has to perhaps look for a new beginning somewhere else and will always cherish the time here… She drove back home.


Her eyes were still glistening with tears that were uncontrollable till she reached home. Her Mom read the expression and understood the feelings and did not question her on anything… They had a quite dinner and then finally when they were about to go to bed, Her Mom asked her to stay back. They were soon watching one of their favorite movies. She slowly sneaked into her Mom’s lap and gave way to all the emotions, and her mom only said… “You are not losing anything here, you will carry with all these as memories and they will always remain as fresh as you see them today, you just have to rewind your mind and everything will be back to you. Life is a process of creating newer memories everyday for us and that’s the reason we live to make a new beginning always because life does not end till we die and even after we die we still live by being in someone’s memories”
That night she slept peacefully…and the night remained with her always…….

Life - Is it a Dream?

Life sometimes seems like a dream which the sub conscious mind paints in my eyes.
A dream which twinkles in my eyes, At times it smiles through my eyes and at times it wells up with tears in my eyes. Not for the pain of not having realized it but for the sheer presence of it which made me smile may be for once only one moment, one day, may be one month or an year.Yes I love this dream and will always cherish it amidst all the other pains that I come across because I remain grateful to it for having filled my eyes with hope, love and trust which I once entrusted on it and it entrusted on me.

I will not stop here even if the dream shatters and I face the duality that this life has now thrown at me.I will move ahead and crave my name on top of the mountain - I conquered all the pain that life you have given me and emerged victorious. That Life!!! I dont want you to define me but allow me to define you. Life be this empty canvas and i will define you by filling the colors on this canvas which makes you beautiful.I am the artist and you will be my creation, so dont allow my hands to shiver in pain.Give me the freedom to sketch and draw the dream I wish you to be.

Bless me with a dream , a dream that fills my eyes in this whole journey . till the point I find what I Love and then vanquish in its serenity.

An older post.....

Morning Encounter!

It all started off in one of the good morning mail exchanges between friends… The below quote was sent by one of my friend.
Life gives answers in three ways; it says yes and gives whatever you want, it says no and gives you something better or it says wait and gives you the best.
Each of us started interpreting the quote and passed on with relative comments. While I said in a lighter vein, that – “There are chances that person might no longer be there after waiting”. Some people responded saying that they had similar thoughts and some of them said “That they neither felt nor thought that way”.

But there was one particular response that I personally liked. I liked this because it came from one of my friend who is known for his simple thoughts and simple being. No complications at all... and he also has problems sometimes deciphering complex statements (Ok!!! those are my statements, which are confusing to the world in general). Now, coming back to what he said, he merely stated or shall I say restated the quote like this –
Life gives answers in three ways... But many people don’t understand that life is answering to them, some don’t have time to listen to those answers and some don’t bother about the answer :-) And some keep waiting and when life answers they are no longer there, like Neha said :-)

I felt this was an interesting viewpoint and from an equally interesting person who was making this statement. I was ready to take my potshots on this now. I definitely needed the explanation for the context that he was using to make the statements and did not quite realize that I will end up with some profound realities of life that we all overlook sometimes.
The conversation started with a simple tone where he thought (everyone thinks) that as usual I am tubelight and he needs to enlighten with some gyaan on those statements. The statement that he made was now split into 3 sections in order to explain me each of it. So the split is as follows:
Life gives answers in three ways... [Premises]
1. But many people don’t understand that life is answering to them,
2. Some don’t have time to listen to those answers and
3. Some don’t bother about the answer :-)

First illustration for the first statement by my friend……
A person is actually having a desire for his promotion and that’s the only thing in his mind, and suddenly instead of a promotion he is given just some challenging work in his/her project. Now, if the person belongs to the first statement category, He will not recognize this as an opportunity to prove himself, but crib for not being promoted.

My viewpoint was it is going to change depending on the person’s attitude. Attitude is what will decide how you view things. If you are constantly bogged down by your fears, insufficiencies and insecurities… you can never grasp any opportunity and make your life talk. So Attitude should take care if you are in the first state…

Second illustration for the second statement by my friend…
Some people are too busy to listen to those answers…..Let us say, that there is a person who is too lonely in life and hence is in constant remorse, in order to forgive his loneliness he immerses himself in work and is eternally busy. For this person though he wants a company in the form of a friend, wife, girl friend, companion… he can never find one. Even if they happen to sit next to him, he will probably not know it or understand it, and that the answer to his loneliness is there next to him.

My viewpoint was it is a question of your approach, if you really know the real problem; you will find the best solution for it and not settle for something temporary. I am an introvert person and I have also faced situations where I felt the loneliness and wanted just a friend to share the time with, I am also very choosy in matters of friendship. But when the situation was like my real problem was loneliness, I opened up and did not hide myself behind curtains and ended up making acquaintances and friends. If there is something that is hurting you, you will need to search for medicine and not hide the wound inside a bandage for the rest of your life. So Approach should take care if you are in the second state….

Last illustration for the last statement by my friend and some part has been modified by me.
The set of people who are not bothered (Don’t care types) about the answers. They simply keep doing and taking things as it unfolds… (Actually speaking I find this to be a desired quality sometimes, but not to an extent where you are not yourself).
Example my friend gave was, Let us say a person loves a girl and wants to marry her, but after some years the for some reasons they are not able to marry – if he followed the third statement he will not break his head for finding a solution , but take it the way it has been shown to him….

My viewpoint was when we stand and follow things as in the last statement; I think of that you can only do this, when you are REALLY not very sure of WHAT you WANT. You must have so much of conviction for a particular thing to make it materialize in your life and for doing this you need to aspire and Aim for it. When something becomes so important as an Aim in your life, you can hardly ignore the answers, infact you will search for the answers on your won.

But the funniest part in this is that in our lives we all at certain times follow these statements…. And completely ignorant of the fact that Life is answering our questions. I myself cannot make out if the answers have been said or not… But something inside me tells me that… The answers are not going to come from outside, it is your conscience that answers … and most of the time message is LOUD and CLEAR. All we have to do is to make a CHOICE, whether we need to do the “RIGHT” thing or “CONVENIENT” thing. Listen to the voice inside you and you will be happy and content…

Lastly thanks to my friend Irfan who was in conversation with me, for such a wonderful explanation.

Disclaimer:
The above incidents in the mail bear no resemblance to any person or incidents of anyone in real life. It is completely a work of fiction.

One Day of my life Browsing:

Ok, so one day I find myself strangely out of work.. I mean completely even the monotonous work of documents update also finished and with all the time in my hands.

What do we generally do on such days? Well in normal scenario, people catch with old unread mails, check upon friends with whom we happen to have “long time no” see kinds... or chit chat with colleagues, or try out some other time pass at cafeteria or anything else. All of a sudden I find myself uninterested on any of these lines.. So I decided to browse.

But the next question is “Browse” regarding what? For a change I decided to browse about the thing that I generally help me browse, it’s not a tool, but it is the synonym for SEARCH. I mean I decided to search about Google. I looked at the Google Page. I was amazed by the fact that it is such a simple page but with such wide spread popularity. So what is it that it is built on was the next question.
The answer to that was it basically uses the following programming languages internally…
Python
C++
JavaScript
Java
The answers were from the below link traversal.
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_programming_language_of_Google_etc to http://steve-yegge.blogspot.com/2007/06/rhino-on-rails.html
Next thing, that I was interested in was why Python, I did not question the use of the other two because I had some ideas about the other 3 languages. Ideas like….

Java – a language that is generally popular of creating web sites and things like that and follows object oriented paradigm.
JavaScript – a language used to handle purely for the client interactions on a web page.
C++ - again an object oriented language with popularity of ease of implementing some algorithmic logic in it.

The Python part actually fascinated me more than anything else, so then my search targeted on knowing a little more about this language (little more, since I did not intend to actually go in depth of its usage and all other nuances of it)
Again back to Wiki and strangely landed up in a link for comparison of languages.
Ok now, you might question why on comparison, when you are bred on a particular language , the natural and sick tendency in me is to defend it, even prove its deficiencies as one of the strongest points. But I had to learn the lesson the hard way, that growth is going to be stunted if we tend to defend too much and especially when not needed.

Then followed some blogs about programming languages measurement principles….
Here I came across the concept called “The Computer Language Benchmark’s Game”.
The below link has some theory about it… (Well, for my limited capacity I did not understand most of it)

http://gmarceau.qc.ca/blog/2009/05/speed-size-and-dependability-of.html

My thoughts sailed to altogether a different shore by now, When I was reading the blogs on comparison, the thought that triggered few other searches were.. Why is a new language born in the first place???

Few things according to me are essential for the birth of a new language is:

The current set of languages should have some obvious flaws that are making the programmer's life hell and hence the need for a new one.
Language is syntactically too hard and loses the high level programming language flavor and you are exposed to a set of commands alone (in different flavors).
Or there is a new programming approach or paradigm shift to the way we program or conceptualize application comes into the picture.

I mean, if we look at the birth of C++ from C, it was because of a programming paradigm shift from functional programming to object oriented thinking.
High Level languages like C came into picture because people wanted a syntax that was readable and easily understandable without involving assembly level instructions being written by them. Though internally, it is translated into machine readable format by our compilers.

So the nest topic in which I found myself sailing is Functional Programming V/s OO Programming.

Some arguments follows in the below mentioned blog links….
http://www.joelonsoftware.com/items/2006/08/01.html talks about functional programming.

Some justifications about OO programming listed in this blog.
http://www.developerdotstar.com/community/node/544

One of those posts talking about a new programming language named SCALA ( a language for JVM) which combines both functional and OO programming..

http://agile2009.agilealliance.org/node/1307
http://www.ibm.com/developerworks/java/library/j-scala01228.html


And lastly something that was holding my interest for sometime and a nice article (from how much I have read) exploring the mapping of our nervous biological system with programming paradigms is here below.

http://www.scielo.cl/scielo.php?script=sci_arttext&pid=S0716-97602007000500011

I hope to complete the above article someday. But today the day ends, with all the thoughts that sailed across to many areas, some interesting to some not so much interesting. I enjoyed my day browsing and allowing my mind to be guided by the Internet.

Happy Browsing…
PS: please don’t mind the number of links; they are posted just to show my wanderings in the world of internet on one fine day.

Amusement

Amusing:

Our mind is restless at all times, The reason I say this is because, I have found myself on one particular day that when people have been asking me question about something, though I muttered some answer, but some background process was thinking something else, the whole period lasted for some 30 mins, and finally I could hardly find myself doing such parallel processing and totally lost track of the discussions.

And yes getting guided by this restlessness of your mind can actually make you see many amusing things in the world. I ended up configuring my iGoogle account on one such day. While doing so, I stumbled upon this gadget shown here..

Quiet a small game, but comes handy when you just want to blank out yourself for sometime.

I did play that today many times and my best was ranging from 21 secs to 39 secs..
I analyzed it for sometime and found that..
When I was playing the game, if I just took one problem and literally and completely thought only about it and only did that.. I was doing good and completed it faster.
But there were times, when I faired very badly in the game too like (39 secs) L. That was whenever I jumped or rather my mind jumped to next question before answering the current one.


Actually this game helps us in training our mind for a single-minded effort towards working out. At these moments of insanity I learned that we may be surrounded by thousands of problems, but we can attack only one at a time, and having solved one by one keeps the trust growing of reaching the end… quickly and in a steady manner.

Hoping to implement the same J Lets see how easy it is (problems or methods to solve them).

Innocent Victims

Next year, there will be thousands of students who would have completed out in the job market searching for a job to make a living and finally be independent. Today sitting at my desk when I look back at 2 years that has passed by , I can see and feel that so many changes have happened both inside me and also outside in the world.

This world looked such a secure place to be in – and now only feeling that all of us share is that of an unknown uncertainty which puts us back into a state of being insecure, insecure about the future ahead of us, insecure about our lives, insecure about people around us and almost everything looks towards us with a strange curious eyes, I don’t know what to answer them.

This feeling is perhaps in its peak for all the students from all forms of educational background who are going to complete their studies. Thinking of them makes me feel that perhaps I was lucky. I consider myself lucky because I did not have to face the uncertain period for too long, though I know that blissful period has ended or will soon end. But what has been amazing is that, the way the students who passed out this year handled the situation when they either got regret letters from companies where they were placed or joining date was postponed. It feels my heart with so much joy that here is a generation in front of us, who faces the situation better than us. According to me they were the worst hit candidates of recession.

Imagine that these are the young blood who have so many dreams and aspirations and people who were destined to be so happy about the way things so far had been and with a surety of a job in hand, where they would join and perhaps fulfill their dreams of achieving so many things in their field of work or interest. But destiny hits them so hard that they are at cross roads of their life with respect to their careers. So many would have been waiting for this day to help their families make a living and now for them the wait seems to have just become more longer. The markets, the corporate community, their families can never perhaps even comprehend the emotional turmoil that these young people went through during these times. So many dreams crushed under this recession for which they hardly had a role to play.

With my limited knowledge of finance only know that – student community is by far the most insulated one when it comes to the market and money pooled in it. May be this is just an assumption, but a majority of students are just there studying and learning things in order to make their dreams come true in future. But what is the final result of all this – The first axe and the hardest hit is on them?

I have personally seen so many students who are handling things so coolly, they have decided to look beyond the recession and are in a constant struggle for getting any job or may be getting admission into Higher education. They have decided in their minds – that they will fight it out and will not get bogged down by the situations around them. Their efforts at this stage might not bear any fruit, but their attitude tells a lot about the grit of their character and we all must learn from them. They are younger to us, but they do teach us all a lesson, A lesson that its all about your attitude in life and outlook towards a situation that will make all the difference in the end.
Recession might have hit the market, but it is not strong enough to break these young ones around us. I wish and hope that they get their due for the struggle and fight they have put in.